Peace and Love, Eternal

While it is true that it is impossible to love someone when you have given all you’ve got, and you’re left with nothing but empty, I also believe that loving someone doesn’t need to have any kind of guarantees.

It is romantic to think that our loved ones will stay with us, no matter what, even if that meant, we are already starting to become unlike ourselves. When we are lost and confused about our paths, we need a guide who could tell us we are still okay, and often, or most of the times, we look at our partners.

Isn’t that the point of a romantic relationship? To have someone we can talk to when the world becomes

chaotic or when we feel so brokenhearted, that we needed to have a person who can say, “Everything’s

going to be okay”?

In truth though, this is a make-believe because not only do we put so much pressure on our “romantic partners” to pick us up, we also give away our inherent need and sense to find our own magic, without resorting to a make-believe fairy-tale known as, “till death do us part”. If you like some truth, each of us is going to die alone. All by our self. Even if our romantic partner wanted to be there for us, when the time comes we lose our breath, we each experience our own unique deaths – without any partner. That is a

harsh truth, and unless you are prepared for your own “Apocalypse” we are always going to fall for the trap that other people have created for us: the lie to believe that others can save us.

I am thinking about this because as I am selling “unreal” mangoes (chocolate + wines), in the belief that you need some nourishment.

I have crafted my whole narrative into that of a "Moonlit Mango" or "Care of Shia" in the belief that drinking unsold wines, especially authentic, like the passion and blood of the Messiah, makes us feel healthy. We can experience a form of magic. Not many people will believe but to hell, do I care? I knew Christ as the Healer.

More and more people nowadays are looking for a love that is lasting – like unsold wines.

When you “polished” as they say, a bottle of wine, it is too easy to look around, and have a buy. But it’s not the case with romantic relationships because once everything is over, it’s over. There is no, “Please add some more” or, “I can buy another drink.” It only becomes a problem when we think our relationships can be sold and be bought just like wines – either a luxury or comfort in a bar, or some specialty wine stores. The problem is, we perpetually look for the aftertaste that wasn’t there in the first place because wines are not like relationships, and in truth, relationships are not designed to be just another form of consumption: whether a drink or a hot chocolate. (I love both).

I love both indulgences, but I have never seen my romantic relationship in the case of another drink, another consumption. I am not being pious. I am not even trying to sound like I have the best relationship ever – although I am really happy and contented to have found my perfect match, my everyday companion, my everyday best friend, and my everyday lover. (God). You might think I am corny, but yeah, I am happy with my romantic relationship as of now. (We can’t foretell the future).

People seldom ask me about my love life. Maybe because I seem detached with the idea of talking about my most personal, private thoughts to someone else, to a stranger. And yet, here you are, I am asking that you do the same. (Quite like). I am asking that you let it all out and be vulnerable in front of someone you barely know – a stranger like myself, and let me have a look at your love life, your relationship. Don’t you think that’s kind of a bit unfair?

It is this belief, the idea that we can never be vulnerable to someone else – especially with a stranger that I put up my own blog, which I now call as my “bread and butter”.

This website is my whole being – my whole truth, nothing half-baked or manufactured. I got tired of the hypocrisy, and hesitation, surrounding vulnerability. We thought we are being strong if we have these huge walls or “facades” on our Facebook profiles and many other profiles we lead our lives with, but you know what, I have learned, and this is my lesson, that nothing can compare to the kind of connection, intimacy, and honesty that you get when you allow yourself to be vulnerable.

Vulnerability in this day and age is no longer just a buzzword, thank God. Nowadays, we believe in the power of raw storytelling like myself, without having to censor our own truth, our vulgarity, our vicariousness, our capriciousness, our uncontrolled sensitivity, our biases, even our prejudices. We do not really care if somebody sees our nakedness, our truth because in doing so, we know we have made a lasting connection. The kind of connection that is raw and honest, we need not look for another bottle.

If this is done with a feat, then you are a Lover. Anything less is sorcery.

In my most contemplative and creative moments, such as this, which I call as the “zone” or be in the “flow” I am letting it all out. I mean, I am just letting the words of my soul flow through me, listening to my heart and not my ego. Many of us are still confused about writing and thinking – and while I do not proclaim that I am the best writer out there, I could say that writing is so different from thinking. In thinking, you need to obviously think. And in thinking, you are using your left brain. The Ego. The rational mind, which tells you, you have to change the spelling or you have to choose a much better word that sounds “intellectual” but in writing – at least the kind that I practice in all of my essays and content of this web, I write my heart, my soul, and my imagination.

I am letting the water from the creative imagination just flow.

Water is symbolical of divine wealth. I am a fire sign, but also very watery. I love going to the beaches and getting soaked in soft waters, but not so much in drinking because I’d rather drink some juice. When you surrender to the flow of the Creative Imagination which I also call as the Infinite Wisdom coming from the God-Source Energy, you become one with the divine. One with the goddess. Your creativity is so much heightened, you need not read any kind of rules out there – although I am not saying you shouldn’t. What I mean is, pure intuition will guide you and what you produce, is a magical work of art, IMHO.

We have a lack of creative imagination. I would want to see art in this world, produced and created from the “waters” that came from the Source. But before that could happen, we needed to be realistic about our love life.

Sure, it’s our love life, because it’s always our love life that seems to get in the way of us pursuing what we really wanted: how to be like a work of art in our own little ways, through our individuated way. It is our love life, or the idea of what it should look like and be like, that we are prevented to see the most abstract that surround our every day: the magic of love.

Love that cannot be seen in the tangible such as the wine – but in the everyday life, in the everyday work of art, in the everyday living, whether you are sipping that champagne or not. We can always look around and not have seen. We can always dream and imagine finding peace when it’s always been there because you are immortal.